I'm back! Like Jack Nickelson in "The Shining", a movie I have only seen brief clips of because I'm a scaredy cat.
The retreat was sublime. I dropped deeply with the silence and sitting and walking meditation, and the topic, Appreciation and Gratitude, was wonderful for me. I was able to notice a lot of my patterns and reactivity and open up and be present much of the retreat. That, despite an aching right hip that required Tylenol and some gentle, kindly care of myself. I love the silence, which allows me to sweep aside the debris and see more clearly the state of my mind and heart. I feel I learned so much.
My teacher has three dogs and there was a fourth dog at the retreat as well, and observing their behavior was pretty illuminating as well. One night I had a dream that the one dog, my favorite, and I were sitting in chairs Frost-Nixon style and I was interviewing her. She confided in me that she didn't like her name, she wanted to be called "Delores". Just call me the dog dream whisperer.
I loved being on retreat and I love being back here. I am so grateful for my life right now. I hope not to lose sight of this life I've been given.
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