I am having trouble adjusting to being back home. I feel unstructured. Today I have errands, and then my foster granddaughter after her schoolday, but there is this sense of looseness. Last night my husband and I tried to plan a trip for our birthdays, but everything we thought of, when we checked into it seemed too expensive. We've always wanted to see an opera at the Met in New York, but when we added the costs, it was so horrendous we gave up. We've always dreamed of staying at the Ahwahnee Hotel in Yosemite, but that was terrible too and we could only get a reservation for one night. Then we looked into Santa Fe, as we've wanted to stay a one of the great hotels on the Plaza, but, same thing. We gave up. So if we aren't going anywhere this fall, what are we doing? We don't know.
I assume this is part of the adjustment of retirement, and transitions are hard. I know we'll figure this out. But right now I don't know what I want to do, and all I see is others taking trips. I could volunteer more, and take classes. And maybe I will. When I do, I'll let you know.
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