I am having meltdowns lately. I had another crying jag yesterday and one the day before. I canceled plans for Mother's Day. My first plan didn't work because there was a big event at the place we were going to. Luckily, I have great kids who figured out what to do. We're going to keep it simple. A hike and a BBQ. I don't why I'm feeling so overwhelmed lately. I'm seeing my therapist once a week to try to figure it out. There's just a lot of sadness and fatigue. I'm such a chipper person normally that I'm shocked at myself. It may be partly to do with my thyroid. Maybe something is off and my medication needs adjusting. And maybe I'm feeling a lot of sadness that I was unable to feel at various points in my life. Maybe I'm going through a huge change. Only time will tell.
Today I'm going to watch my granddaughter play softball with her team. I'm been meaning to go, but if I don't go today there are only a couple of games left. I played softball as a kid, and loved it. It should be fun to see her.
Yesterday we got really, really cheap furniture for our deck at the cabin. One set was a table, four chairs and umbrella for a hundred dollars. I hope this stuff holds up, but it looks pretty sturdy, and if it doesn't, I guess we'll try something else. Our goal is to disassemble our falling apart picnic table before it hurts someone. And have tables that we are able to move around, and chairs that stack. So we got two small tables, that we can handle without help, and mostly the one with four chairs will be enough. The other can be for games and cards. And they can go under the deck in the winter. The picnic table has served us well, first in the cabin then on the deck, and twelve or more people have squeezed around it at times, but now we're usually up alone, and when the kids come they don't even have that many people, so it's time to change. Ahhh, a real chair instead of a splintery bench.
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