There was a beautiful moon lighting up the night sky last evening. Somehow it did not translate into calm and peacefulness, because when I went to bed a wave of fear washed over me: the debt crisis, the 5 earthquakes two miles away from the night before (were they building up to anything and why hadn't I bought lots of gallons of water?), the pain from the flu and shingles shot, the pains in my side and chest, would the visit with my daughter go okay or would I drive her nuts as usual. I managed to get to sleep despite my very overactive mind, and this morning I feel better. Nothing has changed about the worries, but it's sunny out and I washed my hair and I feel better. All this mind stuff is a wave that washes over me, and the transcience of it is beginning to dawn on me. I have a visualization I do that really helps: I'm in a plane above the clouds and I can see the earth below the moving and changing clouds. My thoughts are those clouds, and below is the astoundingly beautiful earth and I stretch one arm down to touch the earth and one arm up beyond the plane to the universe, and the clouds don't matter. This image comforts me.
Okay, now you think I've really lost it!
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