Sunday, April 29, 2012

Old Age Day by Day April 29, 2012

I've got a headache, very rare for me.  I even took two aspirin.  I sat outside with a friend after meditation in the noonday sun without a hat - not too smart.  Other than fried brain, I feel good, it's a beautiful day, and I had a beef hot dog for lunch for the first time in years.  It tasted delicious, smothered in mustard and red onions.  Now my mouth is burning and I wouldn't dare breathe on anyone, but it was worth it.  I had a good talk with my friend.  She is my swim buddy for our Buddhist practice, and her advice and guidance is a special part of my life.  Today's dharma talk was about awareness, and I'm beginning to understand and recognize it when it happens moment to moment.  I notice the thought patterns and ego of my mind, but there is a detachment from any investment in them.  I feel permission to notice without judgment or disturbance.  Underneath, I listen and look and observe and live without past or future intruding.  It's the ultimate freedom.

So I may go lie down for a while, as I'm noticing the headache, and the noise from the pool next door and my husband clearing his throat and a bird singing and the dogs basking in the sun and the movement of wind in the trees and the keys of the computer tapping.  It's all good.

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