Hope everyone had as nice a holiday as we did. Family and friends, good food and relaxed outings. It was a special treat to have my friend here the week after Christmas, and we talked, walked, saw movies, took day trips and had a quiet, lovely new year's eve and day. Half my kids were traveling to see family and the other half were here, and yet, it felt as if we were all together sharing the events, even our relatives in Ireland. I am content. No regrets, no second guessing, just clean fun - which for me now means enjoying the moments as they come and not clinging when they go.
I made no resolutions. My practice is my resolution, and I work on that every day the same way. What is different each year now is the joyfulness I feel at being alive. I feel my blessings, I feel my dead ones gathered around me, I feel the energy of those who will live after me. I can see my husband feels it more, too. And some of my friends. It's shared awareness of the fleetingness of life, and the opportunities that still abound every single day. A chance to be more sensitive to someone, to see their circumstances and attempt to give them some ease, a moment when we can treat a stranger as a complete, complex person instead of an obstacle, the noticing of the changes in nature around us, an act of kindness and our gratitude for it.
So, today we take down the Christmas decorations, without regret, and carefully, mindful of our backs and knees and age. We put our babies to bed gently, until they awake again next year, or in a next life.
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